Red Bull, Mr. Snuffleupagus, And Hearing The Music


Stanford Medical Center offers art class in their atrium, a sun-filled place where small concerts are also held.  Heedless of the fact that I am the world’s worst artist, I sat down to paint–anything to get away from reality.  But reality flowed off the end of my paintbrush anyway.

Angry Red Bull

But now, instead of seeing red, we are laughing.  Gabriele, the human boomerang, has returned  from the brink once again.  She is doing so well that doctors are trying to wean her off the tube in her nose–which makes her look slightly like Mr. Snufflleupagus from Sesame Street.  Most importantly, her determination is back.

“The climb through cancer is dreadful and I can understand why people just give up,” she said to Simone and me, rumpled and tired from spending the night in the Oncology Family Room, its narrow hard couches and chairs not ideal for sleep.  ”They don’t want to be put through the needles and torture and sickness.   But I can’t give up because each day when I wake up, it just boggles my mind that I get to look at this world.”  My mom flutters a graceful hand toward the window of her hospital room, which looks out onto dirt and an ivy-covered hill.  ”Every morning, whether it’s the sun streaming in or a wonderfully overcast day, it is just too beautiful to leave.”

A Wonderfully Overcast Morning (taken from Gabriele’s kitchen)

Later, Gabriele was so frisky she did some can-can kicks in bed.  And when we took her on a walk she saw one of her doctors and started dancing as joyfully as she could with so many tubes coming out of her small body.   And seeing her sweet, kooky dance, I was reminded of a quote that  decorates my Pinterest page.

Always Choose To Dance

My mom hears the music.  And I believe that alone can work miracles.

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18 Responses to Red Bull, Mr. Snuffleupagus, And Hearing The Music

  1. Well said : )

  2. Your mom is so inspirational. I love her yet I don’t even know her (though I remember we met only once.) That’s a testament to your ability Suzanne to give us a sense of her true essence through your writing. I feel like I’m forever changed by her. When I find my self in rough times, I will think of her (and her attitude through all of this) and be inspired once again.

  3. We’re happy to hear your mom has her indomitable determination back.
    Having you and Simone near her must give her the strength and courage
    she needs.
    I like your painting of the red bull. Do more.
    I am here for you if you need me.
    Take care.
    Love,
    Aunt Sandra

  4. Oh my. This is wonderful news! She is courageous, strong and has always been an inspiration to me in all the time we’ve been friends. Thanks for keeping us in the loop Suze. Your writing is poignant and uplifting! Love to all … Judes

  5. Yeah,yeah,yeah!!! I’m so happy, jumping up and down and dancing too! I am riding along on this emotional roller coaster Suzi, Simone and Richard and by your side in spirt. Gabi, Heidi and Trauti were by my side with my caregiving journey,with my mom, with their daily emails of understanding, love and support. I would not have been able to do it without them. Tell Tante Gabi how much I love her and how proud I am of her positive spirit! She will know what I mean. Love and hugs Susi

  6. Patty Armstrong

    So happy to hear she is up and about again. She’s Amazing!! Love to all of you, Patty

  7. Lovely lovely lovely! So glad to hear that your mom’s physical strength caught up with her amazing inner strength. Hugs to you all!

    Ellen

  8. Sending her all the love in the world. From Diane and Alan in England. Xx

  9. YAY! I’m dancing right along with you.
    XO

  10. Heidi Eddy-Dorn

    Amazing commentary on the importance of being grateful…your mothers capacity to see the blessings is surely saving her life now…

  11. Excellent! Keep the music going!

  12. C. Douglas Hope

    My Sis is one of a kind… a very strong willed lady… determined to move on with her wonderful life… Lover ya… Dougie

  13. This is fantastic news… Happy you all danced today! Her spirit is infectious, even though I don’t know her… she inspires me and others. Surely this is a wonderfully determined lady. She will prevail! God bless you all!
    ~ Love You, Linda

  14. Oh My God, Suzanne, I hear her music, and I hear yours. The happy and the sad. And, today, I’m glad its the happy. Thanks for keeping us with you and your amazing Mama. Love you, sending you Hawaiian Goodness.

  15. I love that quote…especially because dancing, watching it OR doing it, makes me feel ANYTHING but insane. There should be more dancing. In fact, I believe I will make a point of doing it absolutely everywhere from now on…in the grocery store. While picking my son up at camp. In the shower. While cooking. At the beach. Before sleeping. Upon waking. In between bites of my apple. Even right now as I write this, I am taking a break to do some dancing. Hang on…………………ok, Im back.
    Dancing makes people smile, and laugh, especially when it’s just-WRONG. And, I believe smiling & LaUgHiNg will lead to NO MORE cancer! DaNciNg=Healing. So, I will dance for your Mom, and all who are in need of laughter and healing, and you.
    Love LoVe LOVE to you and your uber-strong snuffleupougus Mom,
    Heather

  16. Your mom is amazing, Suzanne. How lucky you are to have each other.

  17. Picasso as well drew bulls! Glad to know your Mom got some energy.
    robert

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